Rest

Flip it again- another try;

Repeat of the same cycle, it’s like pressing rewind.

Plot twist: a different script,

Changed the cast up a little bit

Few new characters came in

But we know how this will end

Adversities leading to self-destruction.

Trapped inside an hourglass 

Measuring repetitive moments as they pass.

The sand piles, and sticks to me

Each grain, different feelings of a memory

The accumulation is getting heavy

As it clings to my mind and body

Stuck behind this clear barricade,

Repeating time in a cage

How to get out of my own way

Fracture the glass that’s holding me back.

Shattered fragments surround 

Standing on messy and unfamiliar ground

How to manage without my old habits now

Grieving is dark and lonely,

Can’t lift the heaviness of the remorse I carry

You found me where I hid,

In the midst of numbing with substances.

Reaching out with a rescuing hand,

Together we wrote a new narrative

Getting sober is where it began

I respond in guilt and shame,

And you gently lifted the weight

As I am freed by your grace

Led by spirit, guided by faith

To Your unconditional love, my heart awakes

In a new bed as I lay,

The sand grains of previous sin 

Turn to flower petals from within

With a new perspective, 

The past is no longer such a burden

It’s quite beautiful from this angle

As I touch each petal,

They hold memories and lessons, for which I am grateful

At peace with my past,

As I’ve learn to accept

My shortcomings and mistakes,

Laying in My Father’s embrace

Surrounded by the beauty of my pain.

Changed, restored, and safe

Reminding me as I’m finally at rest,

‘I don’t remember anything of your sin once you repent’

~ Carly Reed